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stevegrogers) wrote2027-10-24 02:01 pm
stevegrogers) wrote2027-10-24 02:01 pm
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It's only been five months for me.
[Which might explain just why he's still so skittish. There's a long road to go before he reaches the place that some of the others have told him about.]
If you found me, it wouldn't have been easier. I had to do that on my own.
[Which might explain just why he's still so skittish. There's a long road to go before he reaches the place that some of the others have told him about.]
If you found me, it wouldn't have been easier. I had to do that on my own.
[ Five months - so early after leaving HYDRA. Bucky's attitude made a lot more sense but it didn't hurt any less. ]
I could have helped protect you, Bucky, there were a lot of people after both of us. But they don't seem to be here. You're safer here, Buck.
I could have helped protect you, Bucky, there were a lot of people after both of us. But they don't seem to be here. You're safer here, Buck.
[ the different decades response made him feel a dozen times better because things made a little more sense there. if it had been at the same time, it would have meant more messiness with timelines. ]
I'm better at keeping secrets than I probably should be.
I'm better at keeping secrets than I probably should be.
Okay.
It's complicated, but I wont bore you with the science, at least.
[It takes her a few minutes to be able to figure out how to say it. This is a terrible idea, but one science experiment to another, and he's Captain America.]
When I was eight I was put into this experimental science program. About a year and a half later, Natasha rescued me. Except it wasn't a rescue.
Somehow some very bad people managed to ensure that Fury would send Natasha. It was just another stage of their project. That night linked us together, her mind into mine. Neither of us noticed at first, and SHIELD keeps me imprisoned until I escape, but when I meet her again it gets worse. Her skills, her memories.
We broke the link, but I still remember it all
So. Yeah.
It's complicated, but I wont bore you with the science, at least.
[It takes her a few minutes to be able to figure out how to say it. This is a terrible idea, but one science experiment to another, and he's Captain America.]
When I was eight I was put into this experimental science program. About a year and a half later, Natasha rescued me. Except it wasn't a rescue.
Somehow some very bad people managed to ensure that Fury would send Natasha. It was just another stage of their project. That night linked us together, her mind into mine. Neither of us noticed at first, and SHIELD keeps me imprisoned until I escape, but when I meet her again it gets worse. Her skills, her memories.
We broke the link, but I still remember it all
So. Yeah.
It wasn't about protection, Steve. I can protect myself.
[That, at least, is one thing he's expert at. Not many people could get the drop on him with the training he's had.]
I needed to figure out who I was, and I couldn't do that with you muddying the waters.
[That, at least, is one thing he's expert at. Not many people could get the drop on him with the training he's had.]
I needed to figure out who I was, and I couldn't do that with you muddying the waters.
[ With a nod of his head, he managed to read between the lines. ]
Meaning, you're one of them?
Meaning, you're one of them?
[ Muddying the waters. Ouch. But he kept the pain the words caused off his face because being sensitive over anything wouldn't help. If only Bucky understood being safe would have made it easier to puzzle things out without having to always look over his shoulder. ]
I could have helped but didn't have to stay around you, Bucky. [ He shook his head with a sigh. ] But I get it. You want to do it on your own.
I could have helped but didn't have to stay around you, Bucky. [ He shook his head with a sigh. ] But I get it. You want to do it on your own.
[ Not that he would probably understand too much of the science part anyway. Science tended to be more of Tony's forte. ]
That's really -
So, is that how you fight and handle yourself like Natasha?
Because you still have her memories?
When you two were linked - did you experience everything together?
Or did it not go that far?
That's really -
So, is that how you fight and handle yourself like Natasha?
Because you still have her memories?
When you two were linked - did you experience everything together?
Or did it not go that far?
There's some weirdness to it. Pieces that are more muscle memory but pretty much, yeah.
It actually took me a bit to figure it out once we broke the link. Before it was just like her reactions became my reactions. I didn't even really think about it, it'd just happen.
[At that question it takes a bit before she responds.]
Not at first.
And not together.
But the stronger the link got the more I could pick up from her. So by the end-- yes.
[ Interesting in a really, really disturbing kind of way. ]
Can you see it at any time or is that regulated?
It's always on, if that's what you're asking. Generally just becomes part of a person you learn like their face.
[ Disturbing, but just how some people have to go through their entire lives. Some of which are (much) longer than others. ]
Don't worry, it's pretty much against the rules to tell anyone their times. Or else the Enforcers come after you.
[ Disturbing, but just how some people have to go through their entire lives. Some of which are (much) longer than others. ]
Don't worry, it's pretty much against the rules to tell anyone their times. Or else the Enforcers come after you.
And she also has your memories? It went both ways there?
That had to be really hard. Must have made you feel like you're not your own person.
[ Something he related to more than most, clearly. He knew exactly how it felt to be made it something else and paraded around for it. ]
The classified information she knew - do you know that too?
That had to be really hard. Must have made you feel like you're not your own person.
[ Something he related to more than most, clearly. He knew exactly how it felt to be made it something else and paraded around for it. ]
The classified information she knew - do you know that too?
No, Steve, I didn't want to, I needed to.
[It comes out as slightly more of a snap this time.]
I had HYDRA telling me one thing, and you telling me another, I needed to work out the truth without any outside influences. I wasn't going to be someone else's puppet.
[Not that Steve would make him a puppet, but the point is there. He needed to find the impartial truth, not Steve's biased memories.]
[It comes out as slightly more of a snap this time.]
I had HYDRA telling me one thing, and you telling me another, I needed to work out the truth without any outside influences. I wasn't going to be someone else's puppet.
[Not that Steve would make him a puppet, but the point is there. He needed to find the impartial truth, not Steve's biased memories.]
[ Swallowing down any of the hurt or snappy retorts of his own, he only nodded his head. He needed to remember this Bucky hadn't been away from HYDRA very long. There were bound to be a lot of conflicting memories, feelings and attitudes. He couldn't take it personally. ]
Do you still feel that way? You want me to stay away from you? [ No use beating around the bush with it, especially when Bucky practically alluded with it. ]
Do you still feel that way? You want me to stay away from you? [ No use beating around the bush with it, especially when Bucky practically alluded with it. ]
[ It had to be a sad thing to know someone would go early or soon and not be able to tell them. The more he thought about it, the more something occurred to him. ]
You see mine? My number I mean?
You see mine? My number I mean?
[His gut instinct is to say yes, but that's not entirely true any more. He's wary, though, what if Steve vanishes again? He still doesn't know why he went back through the portal last time.]
...maybe not forever.
[So that's a yes, but with a hope that it might change.]
...maybe not forever.
[So that's a yes, but with a hope that it might change.]
[ Looking down for a moment, he felt his heart squeeze but yet again he tried to not take it too personally. How could he not, though? For so long, he only had Bucky in his life and finding the man again changed everything. Bucky happened to be the only real connection he had to himself and the protectiveness wouldn't just go away. Neither would anything else. ]
I'll try but if you're in trouble, I won't make any promises about staying away.
I'll try but if you're in trouble, I won't make any promises about staying away.
[ A very tiny smile pulled at his lips and he had the good sense to at least look a little sheepish. ]
What can I say - it's one of my gifts.
[ More like a stubborn curse by any other standards but perseverance had served him well, mostly. ]
And you do end up in danger a lot.
What can I say - it's one of my gifts.
[ More like a stubborn curse by any other standards but perseverance had served him well, mostly. ]
And you do end up in danger a lot.
[ He nodded his head, trying to not look too troubled by the entire thing. ]
But you can't tell me about it because of the - Enforcers?
But you can't tell me about it because of the - Enforcers?
[ Heart beating a little faster, he had to use all his willpower to not reach out. ]
Oh - okay. Of course.
[ He took his own little step back, eyes looking a little less sparkling. ]
I'll see you around, Buck. Take care of yourself, okay?
Oh - okay. Of course.
[ He took his own little step back, eyes looking a little less sparkling. ]
I'll see you around, Buck. Take care of yourself, okay?
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